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Lent: Human

Luke 15:11-32 (MSG)

Then he said, “There was once a man who had two sons. The younger said to his father, ‘Father, I want right now what’s coming to me.’

“So the father divided the property between them. It wasn’t long before the younger son packed his bags and left for a distant country. There, undisciplined and dissipated, he wasted everything he had. After he had gone through all his money, there was a bad famine all through that country and he began to hurt. He signed on with a citizen there who assigned him to his fields to slop the pigs. He was so hungry he would have eaten the corncobs in the pig slop, but no one would give him any.

“That brought him to his senses. He said, ‘All those farmhands working for my father sit down to three meals a day, and here I am starving to death. I’m going back to my father. I’ll say to him, Father, I’ve sinned against God, I’ve sinned before you; I don’t deserve to be called your son. Take me on as a hired hand.’ He got right up and went home to his father.

“When he was still a long way off, his father saw him. His heart pounding, he ran out, embraced him, and kissed him. The son started his speech: ‘Father, I’ve sinned against God, I’ve sinned before you; I don’t deserve to be called your son ever again.’

“But the father wasn’t listening. He was calling to the servants, ‘Quick. Bring a clean set of clothes and dress him. Put the family ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Then get a grain-fed heifer and roast it. We’re going to feast! We’re going to have a wonderful time! My son is here—given up for dead and now alive! Given up for lost and now found!’ And they began to have a wonderful time.

“All this time his older son was out in the field. When the day’s work was done he came in. As he approached the house, he heard the music and dancing. Calling over one of the houseboys, he asked what was going on. He told him, ‘Your brother came home. Your father has ordered a feast—barbecued beef!—because he has him home safe and sound.’

“The older brother stalked off in an angry sulk and refused to join in. His father came out and tried to talk to him, but he wouldn’t listen. The son said, ‘Look how many years I’ve stayed here serving you, never giving you one moment of grief, but have you ever thrown a party for me and my friends? Then this son of yours who has thrown away your money on whores shows up and you go all out with a feast!’

“His father said, ‘Son, you don’t understand. You’re with me all the time, and everything that is mine is yours—but this is a wonderful time, and we had to celebrate. This brother of yours was dead, and he’s alive! He was lost, and he’s found!’”


Human – Jon Bellion

I always fear that I’m not living right
So I feel guilty when I go to church
The pastor tells me I’ve been saved, I’m fine
Then please explain to me why my chest still hurts

I spent four thousand on the Mart McFlys
Yet I’m still petrified of going broke
There’s someone gorgeous in my bed tonight
Yet I’m still petrified that I’ll die alone

I’m just so sick of being
I’m just so sick of being
human
I’m just so sick of being
I’m just so sick of being
Oh na…

My mother calls I have no time to talk
But I can find the time to drink and smoke
Took 15 hits ’till I can barely walk
I threw up on the lawn, I can’t find my phone

I got no nuts to tell the one I love
That she’s the reason that I wrote this song
And that’s some coward shit I know it sucks
But Lauren call me when you hear this song

I’m just so sick of being
human
I’m just so sick of being

human
I’m just so sick of being
I’m just so sick of being
Oh na…

See I got GPS on my phone
And I can follow it to get home
If my location’s never unknown
Then tell me why I still feel lost
Tell me why I still feel

Tell me why I still feel
Tell me why I still feel
Human

 

Merciful Father,

you have created us in your image

and called us, your creatures,

to live out your love, hope, and desires in your world.

Absolve your people from their offences, 

that through your bountiful goodness

we may be delivered from the chains of those sins. 

Give us peace from our fears and frailty

and give us hope in our struggle with being human.

Remind us that we are more than the sum of our failures and fleshly desires.

 

 

 

Lent: Mess of Me

Romans 7:15-20 (NIV)

I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

Mess Of Me – Switchfoot

I am my own affliction
I am my own disease
There ain’t no drug that they could sell
Ah there ain’t no drugs to make me well

There ain’t no drug
It’s not enough
There ain’t no drug
The sickness is myself

I made a mess of me I wanna get back the rest of me
I’ve made a mess of me I wanna spend the rest of my life alive
I’ve made a mess of me I wanna get back the rest of me
I’ve made a mess of me I wanna spend the rest of my life alive
The rest of my life alive!

We lock our souls in cages
We hide inside our shells
It’s hard to free the ones you love
Oh when you can’t forgive yourself
Yeah forgive yourself!

There ain’t no drug
There ain’t no drug
There ain’t no drug
The sickness is myself

I made a mess of me I wanna get back the rest of me
I’ve made a mess of me I wanna spend the rest of my life alive
I’ve made a mess of me I wanna reverse this tragedy
I’ve made a mess of me I wanna spend the rest of my life alive
The rest of my life alive!

Ah! Right

There ain’t no drug
There ain’t no drug
There ain’t no drug
No drug to make me well
There ain’t no drug
It’s not enough
I’m breaking up
The sickness is myself
The sickness is myself

I made a mess of me I wanna get back the rest of me
I’ve made a mess of me I wanna spend the rest of my life alive
I’ve made a mess of me I wanna reverse this tragedy
I’ve made a mess of me I wanna spend the rest of my life alive
The rest of my life alive!!

 

God of compassion,

you hate nothing that you have made,

 forgive the sins of all those who are regretful and ashamed,

and embrace your people who struggle to return to you with open arms.

Create and make in us new and contrite hearts

that we, worthily lamenting our sins

and acknowledge our wretchedness,

may receive from you perfect remission and forgiveness;

through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

 

Lenten Devotional

Joel 2:12-13 (ESV)

“Yet even now,” declares the Lord,
“return to me with all your heart,
with fasting, with weeping, and with mourning;
and rend your hearts and not your garments.”
Return to the Lord your God,
for he is gracious and merciful,
slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love;
and he relents over disaster.


Lent is a forty-day season of reflection and preparation for the death of Jesus. It is a time of repentance and meditation, of considering Christ’s suffering and rethinking how we are called to take up our own crosses. Some of us give up things like chocolate or television during this season as a sort of fasting. As a result, we are left to rethink how we live and how we want to live.

Then is Lent a New Year’s resolution for Christians? Not necessarily. Yes, we sacrifice and give up certain pleasures and bad habits, not because of self-improvement or righteous piety, but to reorient our lives towards the cross.

Additionally, Lent is not simply about mirroring Jesus’ fasting in the desert for forty-days and the temptations he had by Satan. Lent is a season where we hear, respond, and arrange our lives to Jesus’ call and the cross. It is a season of giving over our life to death. The German theologian Dietrich Bonhoeffer said it best, “When Christ calls a man, He bids him to come and die”.

As we embark on this journey towards Good Friday and the cross, we begin (once more) to surrender ourselves to Christ in union with his death. However, the cross is not the end to our otherwise happy life, but what Bonhoeffer would say “meets us at the beginning of our communion with Christ”.

We are to confront our own guilt, shame, fears, anger, sadness, and sinfulness during Lent, and though we will experience the joy and happiness of Easter and resurrection, we first must walk the long trek to meet Jesus on the cross and encounter the pain and sorrow of Good Friday.

Let us be reminded that we do not have to fear our own shortcomings:

“The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.”  Psalm 23:1-4 (NIV)


  • Is Lent another New Year’s resolution for you? If yes, why? If no, then how would describe or articulate the importance of Lent?
  • What have you given up for Lent? Why?
  • What have you learned about your faith, yourself, and suffering during Lent?
  • In what ways are you listening to God in this Lenten season?
  • What will help you to remain faithful to your Lenten practice? What will pose a challenge to your Lenten practice?

Fasting

Matthew 6:16-18 (NIV)

“When you fast, do not look somber as the hypocrites do, for they disfigure their faces to show others they are fasting. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face, so that it will not be obvious to others that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen; and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.

Fasting is one of the more important spiritual disciplines that we practice today. As Christians, we believe abstaining in some significant way from food teaches us a lot about ourselves. in other words, fasting reveals to us how much our own peace depends upon the pleasures of eating, and we are reminded that we often use food to ease the discomforts caused by our unwise and fearful living attitudes – lack of self-worth, meaningless work, purposeless existence, or lack of rest or exercise. However, in ancient times fasting was more than simply refraining from food and learning about oneself. Therefore, what does it mean to fast? What is its purpose? How should it be done?

In the Bible, the word “fast” simply means to voluntarily abstain from food. However, the basic purpose of a fast was to demonstrate the humility and dependence upon God in times of sorrow or great pain. It may be the anguish of repentance, it could be the distress of impending danger, or perhaps a response in mourning when a friend or loved one is ill or dead.

Jesus is calling out the religious people as “hypocrites” because he knows that they are seeking the wrong reward by receiving esteem from other people. To be seen as a righteous or spiritual individual seeking and loving God. Does this mean that you must keep ALL fasting a secret? No. Jesus is not articulating or commanding that fasting must be done in private. What Jesus is saying is that it is wrong to fast for the purpose of impressing people. It’s not an issue of who knows about it or what they think of it, but what is the motivation for doing it.

The intentions of the heart belong to a man, but the answer of the tongue comes from the Lord. All a person’s ways seem right in his own opinion, but the Lord evaluates the motives.

Proverbs 16:1-2 (New English Translation)


  • Why do you think fasting along with prayer is so uncommon among Christians today? Why do you think it is common?
  • What’s the difference between abstaining and fasting?

 

The Lord’s Prayer

Matthew 6:5-13 (NIV)

“And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full.  But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.

 “This, then, is how you should pray:

“‘Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
 your kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
 Give us today our daily bread.
 And forgive us our debts,
as we also have forgiven our debtors.
 And lead us not into temptation
but deliver us from the evil one.

Unfortunately, as Christians, “The Lord’s Prayer” often falls into the category of vain repetition for us. Therefore, we sometimes forget of the importance of the prayer and assume this Matthew passage is just about Jesus revealing the selfishness of the religious leaders of his day. Jesus does indeed exposes the self-righteous and self-centered practices of these religious leaders in this passage, but we need to be reminded of why Jesus also explains how we ought to pray.

We are accustomed to thinking of prayer as a good strategy for getting what we want. Often times praying calls up the imagery of a genie granting our dreams, desires, and needs, and we believe that invoking Jesus’ name would make our prayers true (“in Jesus’ name”). However, all prayer-including The Lord’s Prayer-is not for getting what we want, but rather for bending our wants towards what God wants.

The Danish philosopher and Christian thinker Soren Kierkegaard said it best, “The function of prayer is not to influence God, but rather to change the nature of the one who prays.” In other words, prayer is an active process for us to bend our lives towards God in a way that is not of our natural inclination.

“[…]that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.” Ephesians 3:17-19 (NIV)


  • How much is prayer a part of your interaction with others? How much do you think it should be?
  • How would we make prayer more central to our shared lives?
  • What are some ways that can help bend our lives to God through prayer?

 

Be Perfect

“Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.” (Matthew 5:48 NIV)

At first glance, this simple verse seems to be calling us to be and do the impossible. As a result, we are left feeling confused and discouraged. Does Jesus really mean what we think he is saying here?

In modern English, the word “perfect” means “a status of the highest excellence” or “a product that is completely free from faults or defects”. Unfortunately, however, most Christians today have combine these two definitions of the word “perfect”, and we impose a modern understanding to this verse: “Do not sin”. In reality, Jesus (and Matthew) had a different understanding and intention for the word “‘perfect”. The Greek word in Matthew 5:48 is teleioi, which is translated to mean “complete”, “mature”, “fulfilled”, or “finished”.

The verse is not a command about achievements: having the perfect body or perfect teeth, gaining the perfect score in an exam or competition, or possessing a life free of sin. Those “perfections”, good as they are, are not the full picture. Rather, the verse is a reminder of who we really are and what we were made to be. In other words, we are to be made in full and complete likeness of Christ.

Christian growth is about reshaping all relationships and responsibilities to express the faithfulness and love of God that was made complete in the life and death of Jesus. In spite of this, our anger, insecurities, and complacency keep us from the interactions and services that help us to be made fully Christ-like.

“In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 2:5 NIV)


  • What are some ways for you to be more like Christ? Where are the places where you think you can be Christ-like?
  • As Christians, we say that God is complete because he is the Trinity. That is, the triune God is whole because it is a community of the Father, Son, and Spirit among each other. How can we, the community of faith, help each other to grow into more like Christ?

Salt and Light

Matthew 5:13-16 (NIV)

 “You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.

 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.  In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.

As part of the Sermon on the Mount, this simple passage can be easily misread. Because we are prone to think of the Sermon on the Mount primarily in terms of law and command, it is very easy to hear Jesus in this passage telling us that we must be salt and light. Or we think Jesus is saying how we ought to be and why we should be salt and light. However, that’s not what’s going on here at all. What Jesus is saying is sheer declaration and promise: You are the salt of the earth. You are the light of the world.

Why salt and light? What does it mean to be salt and light?

The importance of salt, especially in the ancient world was significant. In the first century, salt had many functions: preservative, flavor, medicine, and money. Therefore, Jesus knew the value of salt comes in its application on other things. In other words, Christians are called to exist for others.

The word “light” means “to illuminate” or “to make visible”. Jesus understood the functionality of light allowed people to see, which would otherwise not have been perceptible in the dark. That is to say, light allows people to recognize the causes of our actions and deeds.

However, we don’t always live up to Jesus’ pronouncement. We fall short and wonder how this truth and promise could possibly be true. The good news is we don’t have to work to achieve the label of “salt and light”. We already are.

“Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.” (Colossians 3:12-14 NIV)


  • Why is it important to know who we are? How does this inform us about how we live our lives?
  • What do you think Jesus meant about salt losing its flavor? How is it possible to become ‘unsalty’?
  • How can you be salt and light to the people around you?

 

Epiphany Devotional

 

John 1:14 NIV

“The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the one and only Son, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.”

Epiphany, in some ways, is an “expansion” of Christmas. At Christmas we celebrate the birth of the Messiah, and in Epiphany we commemorate Jesus, God made flesh, being recognized by the world.  Basically, at Christmas God appears as man, and at Epiphany man appears before the world as God.

Epiphany is a season of unveiling and making known.  The word “epiphany” means “to show”, “to reveal”, “to make manifest”, or “to make known”. Therefore, we look at the many stories God has made himself known through Jesus: We follow the Magi guided by a star to worship Jesus. We hear the testimony  of the Father at Jesus’ baptism. We watch Jesus perform various signs and wonders: turn water into wine, heal the sick, and raise the dead. We walk up the mountain with Peter, James, and John, and witness the Transfiguration of Jesus.

Why doesn’t God reveal himself MORE to mankind? Does God even reveal himself to us today? As Christian, regardless of what we see or hear from today’s media, we believe that God indeed continues to reveal himself to us today. He does so through Scripture, the Word being preached, worship, Eucharist, and in community. More importantly, we believe God continues to make himself known through us. His people and his church. As the German theologian, Dietrich Bonhoeffer, once wrote: “The church is the physical manifestation of Christ on earth.”

However, our fears, pride, and busy lives keep us from making God’s grace and love known to ourselves and to others.

Let us be reminded that the season of Epiphany begins with this challenge: “Be still and know that I am God.” (Psalm 46:10 NIV)

 

  • What are some ways we can make space for God to be known to us? To others?
  • What keeps you from making God’s grace and love known to people around you? Family, friends, coworkers, or your church community.
  • What are ways you can (as an individual) make God known to others? How as a community can we make God known to others?